I came across this quote the other month
You’ve got to find what you love and let it kill you ~Kinky Friedman*
It caused me to wake up and simultaneously – sink into myself.
So often my darling- I see you spend yourself in NOT finding what you love because you do not want to die.
And so you make due in the mundane. The mediocre. The common.
You convince yourself that this is your fate. Your lot.
And yet- if this is you – you felt a confusion just now. The waters of your soul were troubled. Something in you said “yes”.
This is your path – and on some level – through time and space and unknowing- you know it.
There are 2 facets, to this path.
If you are a woman who does not know why you are here, who has run in circles and gathered breadcrumbs along the way – yet STILL has not found her seed of Greatness, her Purpose, her reason for being – to you I say-
You must find what you love
You must become the huntress, and your prey is that great Purpose for which you came here.
You must learn to crack open the hardness of your heart until you find where it beats and blood runs.
You must let that heart so beating lead you, coax you, seduce you and – if necessary- drag you behind it in the pursuit of What You Love.
If you are a woman who knows what you love… I say-
Let it kill you
Stop striving to protect yourself from what you fear of it.
And by death I’m not speaking of the literal.
I’m speaking of death by Loves own hand.
Let it crucify your need for approval
Let it trample your stale world view
Let it cause your knowledge of self, of life of Spirit, to be undone only to be remade.
No one takes my life but I lay it down ~Jesus
Here’s the secret dear heart, once you have laid your life down – you become magnificently FEARLESS.
It was not snatched from you like a thief in the night- no… instead you found what you love – and you allowed it to have it’s way with you.
To slaughter that which no longer served.
The life of the butterfly begins at the death of the caterpillar
You released that armor of pride in favor of a cloak of Vision. Purpose.
And you found… perhaps unexpectedly – the most sublime of Pleasure.
This is both the invitation of the Feminine and the Masculine.
Feminine women and Masculine men already know the TRUTH of this love on some level – but they often have not yet found the way to surrender to it.
They often spend their time instead seeking to find another way – something far more politically correct. Something easier and more neutral.
Something less intense.
Neutrality is not the space of love. No one dies for neutrality. No one surrenders to neutrality.
If you’re reading this and felt something stir just a bit in you – I daresay that path of Neutrality is not yours.
Your heart is aching for something more…
surrender to it, then let it kill you.