Sitting curled up on the sofa – cup of hot lemon tea in hand and comfy fuzzy blanket draped over my knees I contemplate the New Year.
In my early 30’s I wanted to run out and party on New Years Eve, in my mid and late 30’s I’d make big plans for my life – but for the last couple years I’ve felt something different…
I’m conscious of “real” time. We’re in the dead of winter. The nights are long and the days are short. It’s cold and still – everything in my natural environment is asleep. We’re also at the dark moon – the phase f the moon that is least externally directed – the time when we do the most inner working, turning, nurturing.
I spoke to a friend who asked me what I thought she should do to for New Years eve – what big proclamations she might give. I encouraged her not to. I said:
If you would do anything- commit yourself to Self Care. To simple stillness and consciousness.
I realize this isn’t a big blast of a New Years resolution. Even those who say they don’t do resolutions tend toward huge external focus during this holiday – What will I do next year? Where will I go? How big can I be?
And while I do not believe there is anything wrong with being bigger- committing to “bigness” while the energy swirls around that says “go with, within, within…” tends to prevent being successful in whatever the endeavor is.
So I turn Within.
I follow this energy and allow the stillness. I listen with curiosity to the voice of my inner being, my womb, my light and my shadow.
I commit to being.
To lavishing more love within myself. To more compassion for myself. To remembering my Divine nature. To becoming more of I AM.
I do not focus on the external actions – which pass away in the glaring face of life, and time, and an already full plate – failing at which creates less self love and more loathing. Less self compassion and more criticism.
I invite you do the same. Commit to yourself. Commit to nourishing your inner being – not to bigger and more grand external movement – but to momentous and pivotal internal shifting in awareness.
Not a bigger business but more insight.
Not a more fit body – but more self love.
Not to stop addictive behavior- but to being more present with your longings.
Not grandiose projects – but to awareness of what sustains you.
If you commit to more internal love, acceptance and devotion- you will find that the external actions naturally and gently unfold – effortlessly.
You don’t need to do anything – but commit to you…
Have a tender and joyful New Year!
In adoration and love,
P.S. – Ladies – if you’d like support in your self commitment while learning, growing and deepening check out this bit o’lusciousness – from my heart to yours.